Sometimes......

Sometimes one needs to simply take time out. 

To rest and rejuvenate the self. 

I did just that early on this year. 

The fire in february seemed to be the last straw of a world and people going from one catastrophe to another.

 I really could not deal with anymore "stuff" that wasn't my own and retreated to let the world and others get on with their own dramas. 

In these seven months I have found life to be quietly nurturing as well as extremely healing and uplifting. Placing myself in what I guess most would term self isolation from all people and situations that had me distracted. 

I don't feel we always realise how others impact our lives until we step back. 

People of course read all sorts of scenarios into a person retreating from them and their community not understanding how vital this act of solitude is.

In the months that have passed I began to see how I had lost fragments of myself. 

How I had stopped nurturing myself and how I felt incredibly lonely and unseen even though I was surrounded by others.

Most of all it was connection to the self that had began to slip away.  

The glorious One who activates us all was withering within as my connection to myself all but dwindled away.

Slowly I began to rest. 

Stopping the incessant chatter that continually babbled on in my head all of the time was a challenge, as the months passed, eventually that too ceased. 

Calm prevails once more.

What I have done in these past seven months is to delve into the deep inner world of my soul. 

I have reclaimed my connection with Source/The One/God and seen that this lesson is perhaps the most valuable I have been gifted, for I truly do see what it was all about.

I have reclaimed my connection with Nature my Sacred Mother of All Life. And I have felt my own soul buoyant from my long walks and by viewing life through the lens of my camera once again. 

I was inspired and creating, my soul humming.

 

We cannot dwell in regret and sorrow no more than we can dwell in the past and what ifs. 

We can only deal with so much "stuff" before we begin to lose our spark.

We can only deal with so much anger and negativity, and none of us needs the useless energy of blame.

What we can do is to take ownership of what and who we are and heal and cleanse our souls.

And the biggest lesson of all is to forgive.....