As I wake this morning I feel that I have slipped into the boring world of existence, have been drawn into the humdrum life of work and sleep. Being of aware of this predicament is reason enough to celebrate, for I no longer wish to dwell in the slumbering world of existing a moment longer, it is back to the world of experience and magic that I return to once more.
After a phone conversation yesterday that prompted my post about friends, and a dream last night about being true to myself, I realise that the message was clear, move away from the hands that invite waking slumber, begging me to join them in their misery of the on going soap operas that their lives seem to thrive upon, it is not my wish to be with those who can not see the miracle our lives are about, to live simply existing truly is not for me, to live life like that is to live life dead to the magic that lies within.
To be burdened with 'friends' that are only interested in what it is I do, rather than what it is I am is not a gift I receive well, I see that to continue on this path will see me return to the confines I fled from in August, trapped and withering, dying alive.....
Experiencing life sees you connect with others on a soul level, a place of deep mutual understanding, a place where trust, love and spiritual connection takes place in an instant.
If you have to try to please your friends, or you are made to feel guilty for not attending an invitation extended to you, then you are not in a relationship based on truth.
If you are expected to do certain things to prove your friendship, then a friendship is not what you have.
I have no problem with moving on from those who are no longer required in my inner circle once I sense our time together is at an end, it serves no one to stay stagnated in dysfunctional relationships, it only pulls one further into the quagmire of need and games that will cause even more grief and heartache to surround you, giving you a life of sadness and loneliness.
You do not need to stay with people just because you feel sorry for them, that brings no growth for either party, the same is said for those that can not get the message that a friendship is over, they hound you endlessly as they can't deal with the inner work that calls for their attention, they focus their blame on to anyone but themselves, not seeing that they are lonely because they refuse to do the work within, they just like to point the finger of blame and hatred at others as it gives them an instant of pleasure, takes away the pain, if only for a moment.
To be alone while your sitting in a room full of people or one on one is a jolly good indicator that you have work to do, you are living a lie.
Having made the monumental step of leaving my marriage last year the initial buoyancy I felt has subsided and I was distracted into the robotic world of existing, I had for a moment lost my centre and found that the magic had taken a break as the Universe watched my antics.
I know that by seeing this this morning is enough to break the hold, to lead me away from those that I remained chained to, the illusion of drama released.
It is to the virgin terrain of experience that I now move my energy towards again, and my hand extends outward towards those of a like vibration to manifest physically into my world.
I am now ready to manifest my life in a much more enlightening fashion once again.....