Learning To Surrender

Learning to surrender to the precious bloom that I am has been an enlightening experience, surrendering to the trust that I have in the Universe took all my courage, inside me a war raged, a inner conflict that saw me facing myself, baring all to the core, confronting my personal purpose here on earth, wondering why I found myself again at the crossroads of life. At the end of the day there was only one option open to me, I had to leave, I had to sort out my life, I was dying a long agonising death in each waking moment, each morning saw me cringe as the dawn light filtered its way into my slumbering eyes. I had lost my passion, my spontaneity, my laughter, my joy, my light...............................

Learning to surrender meant letting go and trusting.

Sounds simple now.

In actual fact letting go is one of the hardest things we humans have to do, we cling to that which is comfortable, even if it means we are miserable, we would rather have the familiar even if it causes us pain. I realised that I had reached a point of complete surrender, I sat on my bed with tears streaming down my face, sobbing in utter desperation to the Universe, saying that I give up, I don't know what to do. I felt in that moment a calming presence enter the room, I was suddenly peaceful, sated in the release of years of tears, finally the drought had ended, I was cleansed, I knew that I would be guided, I knew that I was safe..............

As the light bestows its protection lovingly upon my humble home I am satisfied and content in the decision that I made, I know that there were no mistakes, that I had to reach rock bottom before I could see the light that would guide me towards my new tomorrows.

And I now know one thing for sure. Life is a journey Live it.......................................