The Sky Is Full...........

The sky is full of the promise of rain, the scent of approaching moisture fills the air, lingering overhead, teasing those underneath with the refreshing release a downpour would bring. Days of relentless long dry heat have left me weary, sleep is difficult as I wake my hair clinging to my brow, my mouth screaming for a icy cold drink, no way to return to slumber in the intensity of the night.As the birds sing out in joyful anticipation of a cooling shower I join them in their vigil, longing for the heavenly droplets to begin their fall to earth......

Thank You Jaky.....

Thank you Jaky for giving me this award, it was a lovely surprise to find this morning. I am to pass this award on to seven people who bring beauty into my life, and this is where it gets hard, I love all the people I visit, they all bring warmth and love into my world as they share their posts The award passes to; 1. Bernie, Natural Moments: Bird and Wildlife Photography 2. Melissa, If I had a Photograph of You 3. Holding Moments 4. Gypsywoman; the gypsy on words unspoken 5. Ronda; Ronda's Wonderland 6. Sara Lulu; Normal is a cycle on a washing machine 7. Lusky; As My Life Turns (I could not figure out how to put the names on as links, me and tricky stuff with computers still do not work!!!!! Sorry Jaky :-) ) Things I find Beautiful. 1. The stillness just before dawn 2. The grace of a bird as it flies overhead 3. Footprints left in the sand 4. Feeling the wind dance through my hair 5. Snuggling in front of a fire on a cold winters night 6. Purring cats 7. Watching an elderly couple walk down the street hand in hand.........

Not Impressed............

Not impressed with my new evening roster at work, Spirit gives me the cold shoulder.

Expecting him to sleep in longer in the mornings and wait until all hours for his dinner really will not do! Pixie on the other hand could not be happier. She just adores all the extra time I have to snuggle with her in bed in the mornings. God love them, they do amuse me endlessly. Both such individuals whose antics are as relentless as their energy. Who would have thought that such tiny little armfuls of fur could be SO demanding........

The Water Has..............

The water has been calling me.

Walking by the oceans edge was not enough, no, it sang to me, yearning for me to return to the cleansing waters that caress my feet as I amble along.

It had been a long time since I swam, not just a dip to refresh myself on a sultry day, but to swim for fitness, so heeding the call I have now returned to the water four times or so per week.

The feeling of wellness I sense since returning to the water has been apparent from the first day, I am feeling far more alive.

Cleansed of the weariness that the day stacks upon me, relaxed and mellow no matter what I encounter, any negativity simply washes away from me.

I shall relish the freedom to enjoy the ocean while the weather still permits, of course being mindful of the strong currents that can drag you out if you venture too far from the shore in these treacherous seas.

I feel free, yet, so insignificant as I laze about in the waves as they pound their way to the beach, such a powerful force the ocean is, brutal and soothing all at once.

No wonder the healing benefits of sea water is so cathartic, it is as if for an hour or so I return to the womb of my mother, to be nourished and embraced by Mother Nature herself....

We Are...........

We are all afraid to bare our soul, to stand naked to the world showing our vulnerability, the gentle side of us that radiates the warm glow of the God/dess within.

We hide our true self under cloaks that disguise the authentic beauty we all have.

In an age where plastic people are deemed beautiful, where the outer cover is more important than the state of the soul, I wonder what it is many people think this life is all about.

To be with your Self, alone, open and vulnerable to the innocence that radiates from you is a journey that can illuminate the most closed heart.

The courage it takes to look within your Self, to visit the core of your anxiety is a task not many wish to embark on, sadly, many miss the fruits of such a liberating experience...

My Meditations..............

My meditations are about to become more varied, I shall still sit here in my room and enjoy the Oneness and stillness of simply being alone, but also I shall be going to join the group meditations of one of my new friends, after a long conversation on Friday we realised that our beliefs are very similar and he invited me to join his group. Life is really starting to move now, new energy is beaming in from all avenues, I can sense that I have moved through such a lot of baggage in the last few weeks, shedding all that is not required any longer, I seem to be a beacon for positivity, which is not being taken for granted, I am aware of all that is occurring within my world at present. With the new people in my life now manifesting a new perspective on manifestation, it is becoming rather apparent that it is not taking very long at all to produce my desires into reality, as long of course that the time is right, and that what I am asking for is what I actually need.

I have reached that place of acceptance, of being where I need to be now.

Of knowing that of all the millions of stories that are acting out around me I am only to focus on one story, mine. There is no use looking at another persons life play as I realise that I have written my life in fine detail, of deep spiritual lessons that required growth, and that I am where I need to be in every moment of my life, I hold the pen that writes my life, I orchestrate my melodies with great precision for the greater good of my soul, so all is as it should be, even if I have other ideas about the situation I may find myself in.

Even in the times of sadness and confusion I remember that I designed the whole thing, that if I look deeper into the silent messages every encounter holds then I will begin to see the true purpose of my life.....

Peekaboo Princess Pixie....

Peekaboo princess Pixie

Watching as Spirit was playing with me Still Silent Watching For just the right moment to pounce.....

After Miles..............

After miles of walking around the city today my friend and I stopped for refreshments in this little cafe. It was like stepping back in time, I felt like I should have been in a Hollywood movie, it seemed surreal somehow.......

My weekends are becoming feasts for my soul, the last few have been jammed packed full of fun and new companions that really do promote inner harmony for me. Even though I have my days of melancholy the Universe appears to be directing new faces and adventures my way......

Not to mention more places that make a rather good soy cappuccino......

A Thank You Gift........

A thank you gift given by two of my guests last night because I told them not to bring anything with them apart from their company.

I was left speechless at their generosity and the PURRFECT selection of a gift for me.

They said that when they saw it they knew it was made for me. They especially loved the fact that it is a perfect match for Spirit's collar, and said that now wherever I go, Spirit will always be there with me......

A Gathering..........

A gathering of friends for a dinner party at my house last night has me buzzing still this morning, what a wonderful time I had. The first of many I trust! The whole afternoon was spent creating delicious food to warm the hungry tummies, and boy did I enjoy myself. Firstly I was wondering what to cook, in the end I settled on; Stuffed mushrooms for entree, my lentil and sweet potato curry with Moroccan bell pepper rice, my own version of dahl, and burgal chilli and spinach salad. Followed by, my special vegan chocolate cake served with soy ice cream and mixed berry puree, it was YUM! I realised how much I have missed cooking for other people, I love to cook, and because I am a conscious cook, (I am meditate whilst preparing the food, infusing it with my energy, therefore it is offered with unconditional love to all who partake,) it was such a special night, returning to a part of me that had been hibernating for far too long! The whole evening was a delight, from preparing the house, setting the table, creating my food, getting ready and entertaining my guests. It has made me realise how much I have missed doing it. I am looking forward to many more nights spent the same way with all the new people that are coming into my life................

Pixie, The Shoe Protector......

Pixie, the shoe protector!

Bless her, she could hardly contain herself when I took my shoes off last night.

During my round yesterday I met three new dogs, so the smells emanating from them must have set her tiny nose on fire.

After rolling all over them she was happy in the end to snuggle with them into the wee small hours, and was still there when I got up this morning.......

At The..............

At the end of a long hot day there is nothing better to do than go walking down at the local beach.

Watching as I meander along, the wind surfers zooming across the choppy sea... With many locals out doing the same thing the beach felt like a highway this afternoon. Walkers, swimmers, surfers and the occasional observer all enjoying the coolness of the afternoon by the sea. I do feel that this time is relaxing and cleansing, and do usually enjoy the intimate connection with the ocean on my own, today though I was to be mindful of passers by as I attempted to loose myself in thought and contemplation, mixtures of emotions bubbling to the brim of my consciousness as I meditated upon the destiny of my tomorrows....

Setting The Mood...........

Setting the mood in my new, soon to be house, will be these Moroccan lights. I have had them put away at the lighting shop, paying them off for a few weeks now and after picking them up yesterday I just had to see what they would look like once they had a light glowing inside. Only trouble was that I would need an electricain to connected them.

So....

I decided to put a tea light candle inside and waited for night to fall to see what the effect would be................

I think that they are going to look fabulous..............

Spirit Loves To Spend...........

Spirit loves to spend the end of the day watching the people walking past with their dogs on their way to the park.

Here he is safe, a king on his throne able to view his subjects with a keen eye....

In the safety of the front room, Pixie watches her brother, never far away from him, but far enough away from the scary outside world that frightens her so......

My cats have been my saviours in the days of renewing my relationship with My Self,

they have given my companionship, love and bucket loads of laughter, and of course getting over the loss of Blossom,

without them I am certain I would not be as happy as I am learning to be on my own.

As we settle into bed at night I do wonder however if there really is room for another human,

as they have their side of the bed, and I mine!

Taking Time.......

Taking time to contemplate my tomorrows is something that I am doing more and more frequently, it appears that my soul is yearning for something to allure it into a more harmonious life.

I am still pondering the decision that I made in regards to building my own home, everyone thinks it was the best thing for me, yet, me, well, I am not so certain that it was!

Firstly I will be going back to the bare streets of a newly designed residential suburb, not really me at all, but to go further out into the country was not an option that I can currently afford, so, I signed on the dotted line and hence I am now thinking that I have backed myself into a corner for another year or so.

I know that it is not forever, and to honest if I felt that I had to live here for the rest of my days I would not be a completely happy person, I feel that there is somewhere calling to me, maybe there will be movement back to the UK perhaps, or to a new place entirely.

Maybe I am not one for settling down in one place for too long, and if I am to settle in one place I feel it needs to be a place that connects with my soul, one where I can feel free and at One with the Earth, a place where the daffodils and cherry trees blossom in spring, where the trees are set alight in the autumn painting the vistas with fiery hues that set my soul on fire, and summertime, where the greenness soothes and revitalizes my inner self and the serenades of bird song lull me into a blissful and relaxing trance.

For now though I am taking the time to wait and to fully adjust to the changes taking place within, so I guess staying put is a good thing, for now anyway and maybe when I return home next year I may find an answer to my inner calling.......................

Joyous Times...........

Joyous times spent with friends is worth more than all the riches in the world, yesterday I spoke to two of my closest friends and during the conversations I realised that out of all the people that I know only a few have that special connection that no matter how many miles separate us, or how long it may be between phone calls, the bond never wavers, it is solid, both are friendships based on truth, with deep affection for journeys shared. As I continue on my path of self awakening I am finding that many people that I know are really not people that are beneficial for my inner growth, as my dedication to my own life happiness is paramount I am finding that I am drifting away from those that I feel limit, drain or negate my energy. After speaking to these two particular friends yesterday I found myself analysing those that no longer harmonise with me, what lessons that we required to learn from each other appear to have been paid, it is now time for the old to stand aside and allow the new to burst forth replenishing my life with people that will encourage and promote positivity to reign, allowing the past relationships to float away, drifting endlessly into eternity, taking with them the knowledge of completion, success of attaining all I wished to learn. Learning to let go of all that no longer serves us is not easy, it takes us out of our comfort zones and into the abyss of nothingness. The blankness stares back at us and challenges us to take a step forward into a new way of being, of getting outside ourselves and opening up to the endless possibilities that dangle before us just waiting for us to take the courage to fly................

At The End....

At the end of the day

Be centered

At One

Still

Observing the Light

Within

And Without

Dancing and merging with

All

That surrounds you..

Come And Play...........

Come and play Pixie, meows Spirit... Okay I'm always ready to have some fun..

Maybe not.....

On second thoughts yes lets have some fun..

No I think I would rather go and sit under the bed instead..

Girls!

Sometimes they are NO fun at all!

Thought For The Day.......

Freedom comes from the inside, it is a state of mind that can be attained by anyone, anywhere. It's about releasing limitations, and emerging from past patterns that have us hiding from life and blaming others for any issues that we may have in our life. It's about letting go of addictions and poor me attitudes to take control of your own life. Standing proud and free is our birth right, there are no obstacles in our way that can not be overcome and that in most cases have been placed there by ourselves. All it takes is for you to choose personal freedom................

Jelly Belly........

Little Miss Pixie's diet does not seem to be working just yet, her tiny belly is getting bigger! Gone are the tasty treats and snacks left while I am out, yet still she is getting chubbier!

When we move into our own home later in the year this may change as I am going to make the courtyard secure for her and Spirit and have a kitty playground made for them so she will be able to go outside and be safe from harm.

Until then perhaps I should invest in a harness and lead and take her on little strolls around the neighborhood.......................

Suddenly...............

Suddenly I find myself soaring, in the last few months so much has happened, many things have changed for me, new beginnings encased me in a flurry of activity that left little time to adjust to the altered state of my life. Yet now, suddenly, I feel like I am flying, high and free, there has been an awareness of gratitude that permeates from within and bellows out, gushing forth a profound and deep thankfulness for my life, as it is, right now. I realise that through the yesterdays and all the tears and trials of heart wrenching changes I have become me, and I would not change a moment of what lays behind me disappearing fast into the closets of my memory, to be filed away in recognition of a life worth living. No longer do I mourn the loss of those who have now vacated my life, nor do I regret moving on from those who no longer are required to remain in the close inner circle of my intimate relationships. I have changed, moved into a new state of being, and with that acknowledgement comes the letting go of all that no longer serves me.

As I forge ahead into the empty pages of my tomorrows I understand the importance of simply being, of not wasting my time worrying or planning unnecessarily about the whys and wherefores of what my future may or may not hold. Life is about living now, about being completely and utterly present in the second that I find my self in Now, its about feeling the freedom I have to say no to anything I do not wish to do. It is about being free to run along the shores edge, feeling the wind rushing through my hair and the waves cleansing my feet. I am all I have created my self to be, and the limits to my growth are as endless as my imagination, I realise that the only person that I truly need is me and I know that to have reached this realisation means that none of what I have gone through was in vain.

My message today is to reassure anyone who is struggling with an issue that causes them pain, that no matter how difficult your journey appears to be, know, that by opening your self to God/The Universe/All That Is, you open up the solution to all that hampers your life. By opening up and forgiving yourself and others will set you free and then you realise that the path to true inner health and healing lies within your hands only, you need no others for love or happiness, because, it is all encased within you. I do not require anyone to save me any more I know that the only person that I ever really need is writing these words and although I would like someone to share my journey with me, I now do not require them to combat the loneliness that once threatened to overwhelm me. I now know that I am ready to attract a stable and balanced individual that like me wishes to continue to discover the wonders that a human life has to offer..................

Spirit Cat..........

Spirit cat has been rather naughty lately, if I don't make sure I lock the sliding fly screen door, he slides it open and sits there next to it with a smug look on his face.

He is one smart feline, who knows I am certain that his sister is not allowed out given her state of anxiety, goodness knows what would happen to her if she wandered out, maybe that is what he is thinking, it would be quiet without her around, bless him he does have to endure all sorts of games since her ladyship joined us........

Quietly Standing.........

Quietly standing in the stillness of the morning

Watching

Waiting

Breathing in unison with the Earth as she wakes, slowly.

No rustling leaves to interrupt my view of the moon as it glides into the horizon towards another night, in another land far away.

Dawn brings with it a promise each day, of new vibrant energy to offer its renewal as an opportunity for growth, yet the slumbering do not see the magnitude of this gift as the closed eyes of the sleepwalkers promote a closed heart.

Within the beginning of a fresh day I have the ability to create all I desire as an act of love, for the actions and words that escape from me are like brushstrokes on a virgin canvas, as is the beauty of every dawn.

No two are the same, the colours are mixed with a different magic each morn, all offer the freshness of purity, because each moment is sparkling with the intensity of the heavens, if only more humans could see that each moment holds the same mystery for each of us.

Moments have the capacity to encourage self renewal and growth, there is no need to stay stuck within the blackness of a darken heart, when the opportunity to expand into the glory of wellness awaits us all. Taking control of the health of your body/mind will have you discover the enthralling fantasy of real life, things that really matter,

like

sitting silent as dawn breaks

lone walks along the beach

stroking a cats silky fur

feeling the water cleanse you as you shower.

Nature gives us the greatest gifts in all the world for free

if only we stand still enough to see them.......

Thought For The Day......

We can all choose freedom from the limits we put around ourselves by finding the space to be.

We spend such a lot of time searching for things or people to set us free, when in reality the only one that holds the chains that bind us is, our self.

The only obstacles in our way are the ones we place there, we can at any moment regain total control over every situation in our life, it is simply down to freeing our mind and seeing past the illusion of limitation and fear, which will lead you to a place of truth.......

Gardens..............

Gardens bring me such joy, a sense of peacefulness surrounds me whenever I am close to nature, on the weekend however I had a time of sadness in my old garden, gone are the flourishing new plants, most have withered, many have died.

I know that I was the gardener of the household and with my departure I was always extremely concerned to how my garden would survive, hours of dreaming, planning, planting and nurture all seem to have been in vain.

My heart was overwhelmed with grief as I stood amongst the once vibrant young garden full of promise, by now they should have been thriving as the summer heat would have prompted a growth spurt with regular watering, instead they are sick and unloved, wasting away with out dedicated attention and love for their well being.

I know we are not all fond of pottering outside attending to the needs of another, especially those not of the human strain, but I guess I did hope that somehow the inspiration would have been forthcoming to keep the garden growing.

My lesson this weekend was to see that visiting the past is not always a pleasant experience, that perhaps not knowing or in my case, not seeing how things are is a much better option than dealing with the vision that stood before me........

What A Glorious Sight..............

What a glorious sight welcomed me this morning when I got up, it had rained during the night after many months. It has been a long, hot, dry summer and at last the drought has broken, giving the parched bushland, trees, lawns and gardens a much needed soaking, I pray that there is more on the way, we could do with a few weeks of steady rain to fill the dams and refresh the earth........

I've Managed.......

I've managed to get the photo's back, but have noticed that the toolbar at the top of the page when doing a new post is missing some symbols, I think that this is the cause of the problem, but have no idea when it changed as I did not do it on purpose, hence when I insert a photo it is still a mass of numbers and letters.... Anyone know how to change that?????

Help

Help.................... My blog is all weird I have lost all my photos on the side, all images come up as text, help, help, help..... Any ideas are most welcome!

Not All Of Us............

Not all of us are surrounded by love from the moment we are born into this life, some have planned their life story a little differently, they have to endure and work through layers of emotional, mental and physical traumas before they can move to a place of love, to come out a whole and balanced person, sadly some never do! Don't regret that which has past. Hold no anger towards things you can not change. Stay in the present, the Now is the only time which is currently relevant to your life story. Realise that when true inner growth comes, so too does great pain and heart wrenching lessons. Karma is not about retribution, nor is it about how another person/s treat you, it is about how you react to the person or situation that will highlight where you are on your personal story. If you have learnt from the lessons of the past then you will handle upsetting and angry situations with love in your heart, even if it is you that is the target for abuse. Those that can not look directly into their heart to deal with and heal the hurt within themselves will lash out to others causing no end of hurt and pain to deviate the focus away from the root cause of their unhappiness, themselves. These people will blast all their negative energy towards others, quite often family members who they feel have given them a rough deal, often not willing to understand that the person who they blame was doing the best that they were capable of at the time, and in most cases no longer resemble the person that they were at that time in the past, they fail to see that the cause of their misery is instigated by none other than themselves, thus a feud fueled with hatred, blame and malicious gossip is birthed, in some cases lasting a lifetime. Watching these people weave a web of destruction around them is indeed a difficult position to find yourself in, as it is not our right to interfere into what another chooses as their truth, however misguided or twisted time has created this to be. Being judged and ridiculed by third parties who listen to rumours can be soul destroying if you play into the drama. To stand in your own power, and to send love is the only thing you can do, trusting that the lesson required for all concerned will be accomplished and healing will be forthcoming. This of course is not always the case, often one party will move through the baggage and be ready to step forward into a new and healthy relationship, however, that may not mean that other parties are in tune with their growth, in this case the only thing to do is to stand firm in the vibration of love and wait, which of course requires great inner strength, as to manipulate an others reality is no way to manifest a truly loving solution to the dysfunction that blossoms out of control. We can not change what has been done in the past, but we can heal anything with forgiveness of the self and of others by maintaining an open and loving heart, sometimes it is done overnight, could take a few years or it may take a lifetime. True love transcends all, it sees through the smokescreens of bitterness and lies, we are all one, each a part of the other, all races, all sexes, all one together. One day, perhaps more of us will see past the culture of blame and begin to understand the divine essence of unconditional love........