Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Sometimes............

Sometimes words fail me when I need them the most, yet at this moment I don't feel that I can convey what my heart wants to say. In our life we encounter many people, brought together as our stories unfold, and often we do not know what a gift the presence of these people are, until, well, moments like these. Tears streamed down my face as I read the comments left for us this morning, my heart felt a tenderness so pure that I was overwhelmed with emotion. Thank you seems such a inadequate word, yet it is all that I can think of to say. Blossom is still holding her own, I sat with her all night, dozing off briefly this morning for a few hours, waking in time for our appointment with Craig, Blossom's vet. During the night she drank water and also the tuna juice that I am making for her. She has had a blood sample taken, and Craig, bless his heart was still fairly optimistic that the problem may not be serious, although her heart rate has increased slightly. I have brought her home, and she now rests in front of the fire, peaceful by all accounts, no signs of distress. I know that she is old, and after spending many hours holding her, crying and telling her that if she wishes to go then that is okay, at one stage I had to apologize as her head was saturated with my tears. Little actions mean so much at times of grave illness, even now she prefers to snuggle next to me, head resting on my hand, a act of her love towards me. We are waiting now to hear from the Craig, at which point we may have a decision to make, but until then I have many hours left with my beautiful angel, and not one of them will be taken for granted..

7 comments:

Marlene said...

I cryed reading your post..knowing and remembering what you are feeling right now...I sat like you one whole night..lump in my throat
praying to all the powers for good news.. I will be hoping for the very best news for sweet Blossom.

Mandi said...

Hi Gem and Blossom...thinking of you both....hope she pulls through...thoughts are with you guys...I know what it's like...take care....enjoy the hours..xxxx

Trina said...

I am still thinking good thoughts for you and for her.

Mel said...

You've both been in my thoughts these last days....

I have my *professional* thoughts that look at your girl and think, 'oh, it could be this' or...'it's likely to be this....' and then I have my purely emotional thoughts - the ones that share your agony of waiting and wondering....

We have a lot of elderly patients - those glorious old cats who are so wise in their years - and I hope it comes as a comfort to know that vet. medicine is much kinder to cats than it has been in the past, there are so many more treatments that can help the illnesses of these aging beauties...

~sending some healing energy your way~

luksky said...

As you probably know from reading some of my post, I am not very good at knowing what to say in times of need. But my thoughts and tears are with you and Blossom during this stage in your lives.

Lover of Life/ Nancy said...

Ohhh, I'm just catching up on your blog posts. Having had several animals for their lifetimes, my heart knows what you are going through. Love, light, blessings heading your way...

Melissa said...

I find myself at a loss for words in situations in life too. My heart feels the emotions, but my mind can't conjure up the words.

I hope your angel is healed soon. Sorry I have been away or I would have posted sooner.

I really hope you are doing okay. You are such an inspiration and have a wonderful gift to convey to us all.