Thursday, August 30, 2007
After a very long discussion lasting two nights, we have decided to stay put in this house until we return to England. It already feels as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders, I feel it was another form of running away. How am I guaranteed of having a 'happier' lifestyle just because I live in a prettier place, if I put my heart and soul into creating a tranquil garden here, I shall have the natural paradise that I so crave. I feel I require to have some form of peace and stability in my life and moving again would certainly not attain that. It may take me awhile to get my focus back and my imagination fired up to manifest a glorious retreat in out back garden, but that is certainly what I intend to do seeing I am the creative gardening person of the family. A couple of days resting to regain my stillness and returning to my daily rituals will, I am sure, inspire me into action. No canvas should be left half painted!