Thursday, August 30, 2007

News Flash

After a very long discussion lasting two nights, we have decided to stay put in this house until we return to England. It already feels as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders, I feel it was another form of running away. How am I guaranteed of having a 'happier' lifestyle just because I live in a prettier place, if I put my heart and soul into creating a tranquil garden here, I shall have the natural paradise that I so crave. I feel I require to have some form of peace and stability in my life and moving again would certainly not attain that. It may take me awhile to get my focus back and my imagination fired up to manifest a glorious retreat in out back garden, but that is certainly what I intend to do seeing I am the creative gardening person of the family. A couple of days resting to regain my stillness and returning to my daily rituals will, I am sure, inspire me into action. No canvas should be left half painted!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Feeling MUCH better today, I feel that I shifted a lot of 'stuff' yesterday with my crying and written outburst, as they say, better out than in! In my case most definitely so. My sleep was broken, fitful yet it appears to have done some good, and I must say that Blossom was unusually attentive last night, I woke up twice to see her sat very close to my head staring at me and purring loudly, once I was awake she wanted to settle down to sleep again, although she insisted on laying on top of one of my arms whilst the other stroked her until I fell asleep again, bless her heart, she knew her mummy was very upset. Animals feel from the heart, and know only of unconditional love, it was radiating from her all night. Onwards and upwards from here, as I know that I am bending my own principals in life. Thoughts are things. We manifest that which we focus on the most. Need I continue????

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

I have just had the worst haircut in the history of the world. I shall not be able to go out in public without a paper bag secured to my head for weeks ............ it REALLY is that bad. I feel angry at myself for suggesting that the hairdresser fix the part of my fringe that I burnt off (DON"T ASK) I should have left well enough alone. I can't even look at myself in the mirror without bursting into tears, although the tears I feel stem from much deeper than that. This quite simply is the LAST STRAW, something as simple as a bad hair cut has unleashed everything that has been bubbling inside of me. Hair will actually grow back, eventually, and YES I know that and it could be a lot worse, I do not require reminding of that. I am fed up with everything at present and perhaps this is the Universes way of getting it out of my system, bringing it to a head, cleansing me. All I know is that I suddenly feel like there is no point, that all my beliefs and positivity just get up and slap me in the face from time to time to remind how hateful and pointless this human life really is. OUCH, that is harsh, I feel harsh, I do all the things a devoted and dedicated little spiritual person ought to do, everyday (although of late I have been slipping) and I boost others and support my friends, always see the positive side, walk on the bright side of the road, yet this really is simply unbearable. Maybe it is the pressure of selling the house too, no that is just another smoke screen. I know that as much as I put on a 'happy' face I can not hide the sadness and loneliness that is present within my heart, the isolation I feel. I keep telling myself that this challenge is the final one, that I have been through far worse (I have, and lived to tell the tale) maybe I am just tired, out of pep, happiness and zing! Whatever it is I have not felt this blue, this down and so utterly alone in a very long time, a dark corner somewhere to crawl into is required, needed at least until this atrocious hair cut grows back. All my best friends are so far away, I miss them so much, I always had them to talk to, not that I can't still, but it is by phone, letter or email, hardly the same thing, no hugs available in these methods, and boy do I require a hug. I know what I am saying may well manifest even worse to come if I am not careful, however I can not contain this any longer, perhaps that has been the problem, I have not been honest about how I feel. I don't fit into this society, I miss England with an intensity that I never knew existed, I can not change that, it simply IS. Although everyone I know says it is only for a while longer, it is not them that has to endure my pain, hindsight is marvelous and if we all knew what would happen a little further down the road we would not make as many mistakes as we do, I know I thought that this would be a good move, I accept all the responsibility completely, it still does not make it any easier to endure, because I feel that coming here was the worst mistake of my life. Although there are no mistakes, I am here because I made it happen, I require this pain to grow and to transcend this anguish that I currently feel, and presently it is all too raw for me to see what to do, how to get through, yet I know that I will, and I may well bless this hairdresser in a week or two, maybe even a month, for kick starting me into action, for really facing up and saying what it is that is making me feel down, empty and so desperately alone.

Monday, August 27, 2007


You are loved and cherished on every dimesion.
The names and the numbers do not matter.
They do not mean anything to you.
What is meaningful to you is your own heart, your own soul, your own consciousness, your own potential, your own divine beauty.
But we desire you to know that you are not alone.


My favourite grain

Quinoa (Pronounced Keen-wa) Quinoa is the historic companion to amaranth (I talked about amaranth last week) and its nutritional profile remarkably like amaranth. It is traditionally grown in South America; it has more usable protein than meat, contains all amino acids and is a rich source of minerals, including more usable calcium than milk. Quinoa is commonly referred to as a cereal grain, but technically it is a botanical fruit of an herb plant. It was the staple food source of the Incas who called it the ‘mother grain’. The flavour of cooked quinoa is delicate, almost bland. Quinoa is very versatile and can be served in a variety of ways: * Hot breakfast cereal * Pudding * Cold in salads * Added to soups, curries and casseroles * Sprouted Quinoa is extremely high in protein yet has virtually no cholesterol. When sprouted it contains; * Vitamins A, B6, B12, C, D, E & K * Biotin * Folic acid * Niacin * Pathothenic acid * Calcium with traces of chromium, copper, iodine, magnesium, manganese, phosphorous, potassium, selenium and zinc * All nine amino acids Sprouted quinoa is more efficient and digestible form of protein than meat, the protein in quinoa does not lead to hardening of the arteries, or cholesterol. Sprouted quinoa is cleansing to the heart and arterial systems it reduces the amount of fat in the blood and actually prevents arterial plaque. By eating sprout quinoa regularly vegans and vegetarians who are weak or lacking in areas of their diet will begin to shift their nutritional profiles. Quinoa contains more calcium than milk; therefore it helps to support the skeletal systems, bones and cartilage. Thus quinoa can serve as a protector against; * Arthritis * Bone degeneration * Calcium mal-absorption Quinoa is a warming food so it can assist in reducing damp or mucus of the liver. The liver is the main detoxifier of the body ridding it of pollutants, chemicals and other foreign agents, an organ worth looking after.

Bless her heart

I love, adore, and cherish this beautiful little cat more than words can say. She makes my heart and soul deliriously happy, especially when she sits by her dinner bowl waiting for toppings (more dinner).
Bless her beautiful heart, she very rarely shouts, she will simply sit there waiting to be noticed, god love her.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Blossom's Fish

Yesterday Blossom had another adventure, a half hour drive to a seaside town, where she enjoyed this lovely piece of deep fried fish. She did not eat in a very lady like fashion, she swallowed it, whole, not chewed at all, like she had not been fed in months.
It was no surprise that about five minutes later that she looked somewhat green, and ended up being ill. Bless her, she soon recovered her composure and became captivated by what was going on around her.

Thursday, August 23, 2007


"Lord make me an instrument of your peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love.

Where there is injury, pardon.

Where there is doubt, faith.

Where there is despair, hope.

Where there is darkness, light.

Where there is sadness, joy..."

Saint Francis of Assisi

First of the Month

Today is the beginning of a new month for me, the Lunar Moon or Scorpion Moon. The dominate energies of the Lunar month: Polarise, Stabilise, Challenge. The polarised states we encounter in daily life can serve as extremes which challenge us. The moon, keeper of lunar lunacy, reminds us that as we only see one side of her at a time, so to might we be restricted to only one side of a perpetual equation. If we overlook the inherent unity that opposing forces are born of, polarity is experienced as duality. Duality, the destructive illusion of separation, denies that counter-balance exists to serve each other. Challenges that appear as hardships or struggle, when seen from another perspective, can bear blessings of opportunity. Lunar Moon encourages, stabilise challenge by receiving opposition as a catalyst to generate holistic awareness. Embrace challenges as stimulating soul growth! 13-moon natural time calender


Bookmark with a difference! Some would be horrified at seeing this, yes I know shame on me!

Don't quiet know what is up with me at the moment, I just can't quite seem to get into my next book, I have three on the go presently yet I just can not seem to get into any of them. I don't think it is because they are not well written books, or books that stir my imagination, it is as if my Soul is telling me to have a break??? Maybe 77 books for this year is too much for my soul to take in, maybe I require some time off, perhaps I have overloaded my brain, now that is a concept worth pondering!

I shall plod along though, and I shall also find my normal conventional bookmark!
Why are people such maniacs on the road first thing in the morning???? I have just returned from my morning swimming, feeling all relaxed and peaceful. When all of a sudden I am prompted to remain alert (thanks La La's). As I was driving around the last major round-about before our home a madman driving a work truck failed to see me, (how? I was practically in front of him) his passenger reached over and grabbed his arm and showed him I was there, forcing him to slam on his brakes to miss me(I had right of way I might add). He just did not see me, how is that possible? Where exactly was he? Dreaming of something else? Late for work? The speed at which some people drive be it first thing in the morning or at any other time of the day or night is ridiculous, they appear to have no regard for anyone else on the road especially those of us who like to keep within the speed limits, often driving so close behind you that if you did have to brake suddenly they would more than likely kill you as they parked on your back seat. I get abused for doing the speed limit and for letting people in when there is a queue, why? The undertone in this city is aggression, especially on the roads, the police have zero tolerance for any traffic offence, maybe that is a good thing, although having said that no one appears to be bothered about paying speeding fines, and they can always get extraordinary licence if they loose all their points (why?) yet this does not stop the thousands of aggressive speed freaks that dominate the roads here. They drive as if they are the only ones who matter, they do not take into consideration anyone in their path, nor do they obey any of the road rules, they make them up as they go along, it makes you wonder about the mentality of these people in other areas of their lives. Most of the 'happy' people you encounter during your day, are the same people that turn into monsters once they get behind the wheel of their car, so which is their true persona? I guess I am one of a limited few who feels that we ought to live our lives in peace harmony and love, and apply these principals in every area of our lives, even driving. This country has the reputation of having a laid-back and carefree style of life with people who are happy and friendly, whoever said that obviously did not spend any decent amount of time living here.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Did you know about Amaranth?

Amaranth This amazing grain has recently been making a comeback onto the shop shelves and pantries in many countries; it was once the revered crop of the ancient Aztecs. The Aztecs believed that this grain possessed magical powers and could keep the body healthy and heal a variety of illnesses. Native to Mexico, Guatemala, Peru and Bolivia it is a tiny seed about half the size of millet. So impressive is the nutritional profile of this grain that it has been cited as one of the world’s most promising foods. Grain amaranth is becoming readily available in health food stores, although you may have to request it in others. Amaranth flour appears to be a little easier to get and in many ways is more versatile. Popped amaranth is another variety, this is delicious when added to breakfast cereal; it also makes a nice topping for casseroles and salads. Amaranth, like its companion grain quinoa are to grains what the soy bean is to legumes. * Higher in fats than other grains. * Contains the highest percentage of protein of all grains. * Contains 16 percent protein. * Unusually high in lysine and methinonine, both amino acids. The high quality of protein makes amaranth a good companion to; * Legumes * Nuts * Seeds In addition it is among one of the highest fibre containing grains, rich in calcium, iron and vitamin C, a vitamin not usually found in significant amounts in grains. Amaranth has a strong flavour, nutty and sweet, its aroma is strong and not to everyone’s preference. When cooked as a grain it is sticky and glutinous and can be overpowering to use as a simple grain bed. Amaranth calls for you to be a little imaginative; * As a hot breakfast cereal, adding either dried or fresh fruit, nuts, honey, maple syrup or seeds. * Cooked in fruit juice in place of water, this will give you a result similar to jam that you can spread on bread and crackers. * Adding popped amaranth to salads. * Toast a small amount and add to the top of casseroles.

Today I went to visit a friend that I had not seen in a very long time.
What did I do while I was there?
Fall in love with her new Burmese cat, Milky (Blossom has forgiven me) isn't he just divine, bless his beautiful heart.

How to

How to manifest your dreams into reality; Plan the celebration Sweep the floors Clean the house Pick the date Rearrange the furniture Pick some flowers Do the shopping Take some time off Not necessarily because the goal has been attained, because this is how you reach it!

Feeling Blue

The path that I walk everyday was very therapeutic to my soul yesterday, I have been somewhat down the last few days, I am missing England very much, I can't explain the feeling that I have, all I can say is that my heart aches.
As I walked along this coastal path yesterday breathing in its fresh salty air and seeing its rugged beauty I came upon this glorious Blue Wren, he was singing his delightful little heart out, bless his soul. I stopped and listened to him for a few minutes and as he flew off he took with him part of my inner sadness.
It is not the countryside that makes me feel so isolated and empty here, it is the people, the society, that is taking its toll on me. I know that these days are few and far between now, at first I was utterly depressed and beating myself up for thinking that I had made the worst mistake in my life coming to live here, although as I always say there is no such thing as a mistake, or being in the wrong place at the wrong time. It is all divinely perfect, even if we choose to disagree.
I know that I am to be here for a reason, and that when the time is right to return to England not hell or high waters will keep me from doing so, until then I shall allow the energy to work its way through me, cleansing and reinvigorating me as it goes allowing the destiny of my soul to manifest my reality.
I have known since I was a child what it is that can shift my moods, being with nature. It heals my soul with its beauty and serenity uplifting me and returning me to stillness once again, and it with my communing with nature that I shall endure my remaining time here in Australia with it completing another chapter of my journey.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Animals can't speak for themselves.

In the crusade against animal rights children provide the most positive hope as they still have open and receptive hearts. As J M Coetzee recently said " Given half a chance, children see through the lies with which advertisers bombard them (the happy chicken that is painlessly transformed into succulent nuggets, the smiling moo-cow that donates to us the bounty of its milk). It takes one glance into a slaughterhouse to turn a child into a life long vegetarian or vegan." A lot of people are totally unaware what happens in the real life of a cow, sheep, pig, chicken, deer, duck ........................... In fact a survey was recently conducted in the UK and it found that thousands of children believed that cows laid eggs, that bacon came from sheep and most did not know that beef burgers originated from cattle. If we educate our children into the horrors of the real food chain I feel that as they grow up they will be more aware of what they are eating and where it comes from. I have always said that if we still had to kill our own food many more people would be turning to vegetarianism as a result. Even though I follow a vegan diet I do not bury my head in the sand, I know too well of the horrors that the animals of the planet endure so that man may eat. These beautiful creatures are treated as if they do not have feelings at all, yet if you go out and watch animals in their natural environments you will begin to see the way they communicate and love each other. Can you imagine the pain and anguish a dairy cow must feel as its new born male baby calf is taken from her immediately, killed and used for yummy veal for some high class restaurant, all so the human children can have their glass of milk. Imagine if it was your child, then you may start to get the picture, we are not the only ones who love and feel, and it is about time that our children were educated correctly, actually the majority of adults ought to be too. It is up to all of us as a race to put a stop to the factory farming and barbaric murder of all animals on this planet when all of us can survive without eating the beautiful animals that share our planet.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

All beings tremble before violence.
All fear death.
All love life.


Ancient traditions remind us that we have come into this world for one reason. Love. We are here to love and to find love in every single action we take, each word we speak, in each person we encounter. We are here to awaken to the love that radiates from our soul and connects us to everyone and everything upon this planet. We have forgotten who we are, although that is part of the reason why we incarnate here in the first place, to discover the magnificence of who we really are. It does not matter what path in life we walk, we are all equal in our sovereignty, although those who have made money their 'god' would not share this view, to them they are superior because of the amount of money they have, the mansion they live in, the clothes they wear, the car they drive. Of course this is not the case and any enlighten soul will be aware of this, those who crave the most material wealth without searching their soul for their soul purpose have missed the point for their incarnation. I wake to see the love radiating from the Sun in every dawn. I see the love in song of the birds that soar above my head. I feel the love of the wind as it caresses my body, and soothes my soul. I see the love of the Universe in smile of my family and friends. I see the love of the Universe on the face of my beloved cat. Love is everywhere, it is everything, it is only when we chose to remain in fear that love is not present in our life, it is up to us to reclaim love, to be love, and once we have done so there will be no turning back. We would have found our way home.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Today a pair of sparrows where being very friendly, flying past, sitting on a branch and watching me, chirping away all the time. Then as one of the little sparrows made it's final pass above my head a trail of tiny stars followed behind as it disappeared out of view. Magic.

Thursday, August 16, 2007


.........In your body is the garden of flowers.

Take your seat on the thousand petals of the lotus, and there gaze on the Infinite Beauty.


My Shift

Last night I was woken by the most incredible feeling of love that was radiating from my heart chakra. I don't think that I will be able to describe the sensation, it was simply awesome. I could feel that my heart chakra was being activated taking me to my next level of ascension and with this activation my heart chakra expanded and pulsated differently to what I have experienced before. It was blissful, like a returning to what I once knew life to feel like before I incarnated here on this planet. I also feel it was confirmation for me that I am pursuing the right path, that my dedication to the Light and the inner knowledge that urges me to be who and what I am is in fact the correct path for me.

So be it.


Sunday, August 12, 2007

These Shoes are Made For Walking

I was given a lovely gift today a great new pair of walking shoes, and I was utterly amazed at what a difference these light weight trainers make. I would never had thought that walking could be so light. Having decided that I wish to walk 10 miles a day in training for walking the Road to Santiago in a couple of years time I have started to walk everyday, (well with the odd day off here and there) we went to look at the range of lightweight walking shoes to see what was about and I got a pair as a present for being a happy girl. I put them on and we stopped on the way home so I could test them and I could have walked all day, it really was like walking on clouds. Look out world here I come starting with the Isle of White, the Pennine Way then working up to the Road to Santiago.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Blossom at the Beach

Blossom was out and about again today, this was her second visit to the local beach and after having a good look around before she got out of the car she had a little doze, then jumped down from the sand dune we were sitting on and went for a stroll along the beach its self. She came quite close to an incoming wave at one stage and instead of turning and running she actually went closer to the waters edge. The only thing we found was that she only wished to walk north, don't know why must have been something in the wind!

Now we are home and Blossom has settled by the gas fire looking very content after her adventure. Bless her beautiful heart.
Ever noticed how much time people spend moaning about what is not right in their lives? These same people see the negative side of every situation, always think that everyone else is better off than they are, nothing goes right for them and on and on they moan. I do often say to people like this that if they projected positive outcomes for these so called 'dramas' in their lives they would see a shift in the circumstances that surround them. Do they? No! Why? Because they like to be where they are, unhappy and moaning because that is who they have chosen to become. Can they change? Of course, it is as simple as changing their thinking, replacing the 'problems' with serenity and the peace of a free flowing harmonious life, simple really.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

I have just returned from the most surreal walk I feel I have ever had, it was as if I was walking this familiar path for the first time, although it was more than that, far more.
I was aware of looking though my eyes, seeing the astounding beauty in the stormy sky, my senses were on overload, the waves were crashing, the wind was howling, birds where flying above my head calling to each other, and I was part of them. It was utterly amazing. I was aware of how dreamlike it all appeared to be, like I was walking in a dream, or in a walking meditation, perhaps that is the best way to describe it? An aspect of my self was seeing this all for the first time and I was aware of this happening, I knew intuitively that a part of my soul was seeing this life of mine here on earth and I felt a wave of inner peace unlike anything I have ever experienced before. I felt completely at One with every part of the natural world that was surrounding me.
As I gazed up at the Sun it was hidden from view by the full dark rain clouds that were looming overhead, I felt its radiant love pouring into me, filling my soul with love and light, I felt safe and loved, feeling its warmth upon my body, it was like a home coming, blissful.

"We are here to enable the divine purpose of the Universe to unfold."
Eckhart Tolle

Monday, August 06, 2007

We are all creators of our own destiny, a destiny that is planned to the smallest detail before our incarnation onto this plane. I know that many may not agree with or wish to acknowledge this concept and that is okay, whatever resonates with them becomes their reality.
We are not a simple human being, we are creator gods capable of manifesting the greatest miracles, all we lack is the belief in our Self, and the knowledge of what we truly are.
We are One with every thing upon this planet, in our Universe, we are everything and everything is us, there is not separation. Step outside the illusion of this reality, it is but a dream, a waking dream to provide you with the insight to find your way home. To the stillness within.

Chocolate Face Mask

Want to have a softer younger looking skin and a clear complexion? Try this chocolate, cream and olive oil face mask once a week for a month or so and see the difference. Add 3 tbsp of olive oil and a little cream (dairy) to 2 cups of cocoa powder to make a dough that is not too runny or stiff. Spread it on your face and relax with your eyes closed for 15 - 20 minutes. Why is this mask so good for your skin? Linoleic acid. Two cups of coca power contains slightly over 2 tbsp of pure fat, of which 10-12% is linoleic acid, add this to 3 tbsp of olive oil which gives you another 12% or so of linoleic acid and you have a facial mask containing at least 25% linoleic acid. The main nutrient that gives a baby beautiful subtle skin is none other than linoleic acid. Apart from making you appear more youthful over a period of time (especially weathered looking skin) this treatment also assists sufferers of dermatitis.

Guess where Blossom went on Saturday afternoon??????

The beach! Bless her heart she appeared to quiet enjoy the experience, we forgot the camera so just to prove that she really has been to the beach if the weather is fine on Sunday afternoon we shall take her again.
Who said that dogs could have all the fun anyway?

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Things Money Can't Buy

There things money just can't buy and you don't always find the truth in the temples of the wise. The smell of the ocean, a cat purring, the rising of the sun, the face of your children, lover or friends, a walk in the rain, a bird flying, lying under a tree, butterflies flitting from flower to flower, the beauty of a rainbow, clouds drifting in the sky, a snail leaving its magical silver trail, a hug, a kiss, laughing and peace. Money can buy none of these things yet these simple pleasures are what life is about, pure, simple gifts from our Universe, and it is from these simple pleasures that you will find the truth, in the total surrender of your soul to the power of true unconditional love you will find your truth. Take a walk, sit and be, hold your loved one or watch nature and you will find your true reality.

The simple things in life are free for a reason, they are the greatest source of oneness we have been given, take time for the the ones you love, be at one with nature and most importantly find time to be still, the boons you will receive will be of greater value than any other treasure upon this Earth.

Friday, August 03, 2007

Kangaroo Cull

I noticed that the Australians are at it again, wanting to cull kangaroos. Why is it when any other species does well the humans feel that they are within their rights to murder them. Have they not thought about the fact that they are destroying their natural environment as the greedy business men count their ever growing bank accounts, planning on new land developments everywhere that is still untouched virgin land. A sign I recently saw read, 'change your view' as I drove past I noted how delightful this particular view was, a week later the view was changed alright, ready for more new houses, what do these people feel when they are clearing this land and running over or digging up live feeling beings? Do they ever consider what they are doing? Are they just cold heartless monsters capable of killing anything in the name of money? I pray that one day these cruel callous people wake up to the devastation that they are causing before it is too late. Why don't we consider slowing down on human breeding? What gives the human race the population poll position? All of us have equal rights to be on this planet, and we all play an equally important role no matter what size we are or what our body is covered in. I give intent that the universe assist these magnificent creatures and ensure that they suffer no longer at the hands of the money hungry white man.

It Works

Aloe vera truly is worth its weight in gold, Blossom has been having 10mls twice a day (much to her disgust), as a tonic.
Anyway when I left the house this morning she was in her basket by the gas fire (just in case it jumped into action) so I left her there after attempting to explain I was going out and the sun would be on the bed and she would miss out if she did not stay on it. Not being one to do as she is told, of course she got down. Tough I said you will be cold.

Coming home a few hours later where did I find her????? On the bed! That is the first time ever that she has ever got up onto the bed by herself since we have had her. Of course I kept asking her, how did you get there? And she just looked at me as if I had lost the plot completely!
I was amazed, and quite frankly lost for words. If this is what will occur after only a short time on aloe vera, what prey tell awaits us after six months???? Watch this space as I am certain other miracles will follow in due course!

Thursday, August 02, 2007

You are always in the right place at exactly the right time, even when things appear to be going pear shaped, it is all part of you destiny. Give up trying and simply give intent and then concentrate on enjoying every second of your life, magic will begin to happen more when you stop stressing about what is not happening and start living in the moment. Simply be, it really is a simple as that!